(Will You Give Into Me?)
These are the voices of the taunting cravings eating away at my sanity...
Cigarettes in front of me, lighter in my pocket... To give in would be so easy... Everything is right there, ready, waiting for me to give in.
I CAN AND WILL DO THIS!!!
I heard from many people that quitting smoking is very extremely super redicuously difficult. I didn't think so... until I actually tried. OMG... it's torture. I don't want to smoke, the desire isn't there... But the evil embedded in my brain forces me to believe I want that cigarette more that anything I've ever wanted ever. Just one pull, that filling satisfaction of death, will make the world go around again. Fuck that.
IF I CAN DO THIS, I CAN DO ANYTHING...!
Everyone in the world decides they suddenly want to smoke, and the bastards all do it in front of me... Cigarettes everywhere in sight. That disgusting aroma tingles my nose and sends the same sensation of fresh baked cookies through my nostrils. Fucking shit... I need sleep.
DAY ONE.

Hm... wow... 4 months pass and here I am again. What to say? Well it's amazing how much things can change in such a short period of time. I am working now, 2 jobs. Training a lot, I am going to be a firefighter. Only 2 more months until my 18th birthday. I feel I have acomplished so much over the past year... physically and mentally. YAY.. lol but whatever... Who cares what I think... Wait a minute, I DO..! and if you are reading this, than so must you. But eh.
Its funny how people have their eyes open to the world but can't see anything at all. Its funny how people age but just don't grow. Its funny how stupid the human race. Shit happens.... You can either sit there crying about it or you can kick back and laugh at how stupid the world is. You can't ever have everything your way so enjoy what you have. When shit hits the fan, briefly rage, take a deep breath and move on. Learn not only from your mistakes but from things you see. For I have seen too many great people fall, harder than I ever have. Everyone has their moments. We can all shine if we chose to.
Stay firm in what you believe.
Til the end....
Liz

i'm deleting most of my crap, but i will keep the most faved still posted. i am leaving. i had fun, but now it's clearly over. it was nice meeting everyone here. if anyone cares to keep in touch my yahoo is misssw33tz
well... i don't have much left to say i guess.
Thank you for everyones continued support and for all the comments, kind words... etc

*PEACEOUT!*

It was my birthday on Saturday. YAY.
I am finally 17... THAT GIVES ME ONE YEAR.
So anyway... anybody have anything interesting to converse about? I need friends.... YAY! GO ME!
Ok Idea, I will list foods and drinks that can be compared.... and you tell me which is better.. ya whatever... My Mommy says I'M COOL!

my game is called:

a OR b??

coke or pepsi
lima beans or brussel sprouts
snickers or mars bar
lays chips or pringles
butter popcorn or caramel corn
red licorice or black licorice
mc donalds or wendys
apple juice or orange juice
coffee or tea
skittles or starburst